Life...

In the past month or so, there have been a few people I know who have passed away from either old age or just misfortune, to which my landlord is one of those people. His name is Bill and he always seemed to be enduring his old age even if it was difficult. Another that has been in my thoughts is the unfortunate death of an old exes brother. He loved skydiving and unfortunately passed away because of this love. Both deaths have made me reflect upon my life and what others would say about my life if I were to pass this very day. Yes I know, this is a very depressing thought to have on the mind, yet it's something that everyone should ask themselves. Am I doing something that I love and pursuing my passions in life? Or am I just living/surviving to the next point in life? It has been my goal in life that when people talk about me after my passing, they speak of a man who was been led by his love for truth, honesty and a desire to conquer. I'm not sure what I'll be conquering but I hope that it will be so my whole life. Lets start with my Spartan race in two weeks. After that? I guess we will see.

Utah Spartan Race June 29th

Mothers Day Skype Call

Hidden Agendas

I've had this topic on my mind a lot and it can be kind of a mind boggler for me to be honest. I've grown up my whole life with a mother who has instilled in me that you talk to everyone like they are important, even if they aren't in the grand scheme of things. She would come out of the bathroom and talk to us about having just made a friend in the stall. So when I got to the state of Utah and have tried to continue my normal friendly self, I've run into a problem that has really troubled me. Can a guy not just purely care for another women without wanting romance or something out of the encounter? Is it impossible for people to co-exist without looking for what they get out of it? I have had this argument constantly with coworkers and friends, yet I can't understand how it's impossible to just be a good person and want to understand a human being with great potential. Is this all that we seek after when it comes to human interaction? An advantage in the race we call life or even a mystical thing called love? I don't really know... I can't understand it really at all. As I've lived here in Utah, it seems like I've ran into a lot more people who aren't interested in getting to know who you are because you don't offer them anything in return. Boy are a lot of people missing out on individuals who are walking miracles. Maybe I need to stop ranting or even thinking too deeply about a topic that will only bring me more questions then answers. Perhaps I just need to write some poetry to clear my mind...maybe.